what would you do, if you could do anything? christian asked. would you go back to school?
my heartbeat quickened.
i don’t know. i muttered, a little embarrassed. a nervousness filled me that hasn’t abated.
hearing you can do anything with a communications degree is just about as helpful as being told you can do anything with a law degree. in 2007. when christian started a very difficult, many year job search.
while i appreciate my communications background, my emphasis was broadcast journalism. my studies were prior to so much that shapes the industry now. with the explosion of the internet, blog reporting, 24-hour news stations and camera phones, my tv experience, now eight years in the past, is very outdated.
what would you do, if you could do anything?
that question has nagged, no, haunted me all day, each day since he first asked it.
what would i do?
nutrition and public health interest me, but my undergrad was lacking in science and mathematics. my heart has always been with international development but we don’t live in the right area for those kinds of jobs. i dream of being a real baker but worry if it were a profession i would lose my desire for recreational baking.
and then there is writing.
despite my lack of posts this year – i am always composing something in my mind. the beginnings of so many stories, partial ideas, drafts… they all wait for me. they wait for me to devote time to them. the kind of time that lets me flesh out what i really want to say. time that focuses on what those moments have taught me.
they need time without a little whopper climbing on my lap, pushing me aside, attempting to type on the keyboard.
this week i asked christian to give me a blessing of comfort to help with the demands of my position at church. i was impressed that at the end he spoke, not of my religious duties – but of my maternal ones. he spoke about being the mother that asher needs.
i’m still not sure what i will do professionally in the future, but for now, i will let that crazy little boy steal my iphone and watch for the zillioneth time as he makes multiple password attempts and disables my phone in seconds.