space shuttle mommy! asher says while pointing up at the trail a jet leaves behind high above us. we are supposed to be getting in the car. i am encouraging him to hurry. we are late. before i get impatient i remember expecting a three year old, to operate on my timing, is a recipe … More hello, i’ve waited here for you.
i’m not sure when the newness of a baby shifts so that people around you are comfortable inquiring about other babies. or the next one. or a sibling. sometimes it is small talk not meant at all to distress. often it is a follow-up question to an introduction with a stranger. many times it is … More one is the loneliest.
this last week i spent some time with a deaf sister from my congregation in her home. my attempts to communicate involved lots of arms and hands speaking a made up sign language. i understood her thank yous and i did a sloppy you’re welcome, my hand signing a w but moving in the wrong … More enough.
he started the night in his crib but around 2am he was wedged between us. by 6am yesterday he was tossing and turning. my body tensed, not wanting to make any movements that would bring him all the way out of his slumber. an hour passed. he rolled closer to me. the room still dark … More tracking.
after we got married we’d constantly be asked how married life was going. the question would be asked so enthusiastically that i almost felt bad with my response. married life didn’t seem that different from dating life. except we got to be together all day and all night. as the years added up, and it … More we like to watch you laughing.
tonight i sang little whopper to sleep with easter songs. jesus shines brighter, jesus shines purer and brings to all the world his love. asher watched me closely through the next verses and i thought on how exactly he makes our sorrowing spirits sing. i have not been filling this space, but i have been … More hope for a better world.
this morning i heard his little stirrings in the next room over. it sounded like he was kicking off his blankets while he yawned. i stepped in the room, opened his curtains and looked down at his little face. his whole face lit up and he smiled at me. it is moments like that when … More baby room.